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This may sound silly coming from me, but every time I meet someone and I think it might get serious, I think to myself, it would be nice to have someone to share the holidays with. Don’t get me wrong, I have a huge family and plenty of things to keep my busy through out the end of the year. But as most of you may know, it’s not that same as having that someone special to share everything with.

This year this feeling in more keen than years past. A good friend of mine that I would usually be spending a lot of time with is not around this year. We talk, but it’s not the same. Maybe I was using that as a substitute? No, honestly, we enjoy each other’s company and don’t usually let boyfriends or people we are dating get in the way of hanging out. However now it is a matter of where we are, rather than who we are or are not with. He’s not local anymore, and I doubt will be able to get home this year for either holiday.

Looking back, I’ve met more than a few people I thought could be potential something in my life. A few I have managed to stay friends with, and I few I have managed to stay hidden from!

I was driving  yesterday, radio on, and Elvis started up with his Blue Christmas. Oddly enough I have always enjoyed blue anything, especially Christmas decorations. So for me Blue Christmas has always been a good thing. And then I listened to the words of that song….that is some sad stuff. Odd how you can go through life and different things can be a part of a holiday or event or tradition and you don’t really stop and think about it, or fully understand it.

Yeah, the song left me a little sad, but not devastated or anything like that. I started to think about how lucky I am. I try to remind myself of that all the time. I have my health, family, job. I’m not totally broke, but I think we could all use a little extra in the way of money or savings. Bottom line, I am doing pretty damn good on my own.

Still, it would be nice to have the special someone to get a gift for, or take to a family function. Maybe next year.

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